~A New Chapter of Our Love Story

God Knew This Day Was Coming~

*[this post not meant for casual blog Readers/TMI]

Sprinkles, Showers, Storms

Rain Puddles Or Mud Holes-

Whatever Place You Find Yourself

 It Is No Surprise to God!

He knew This Day was coming and He Promised

"I will never leave you Alone."

He may not rescue us but He will Walk Us Through

to the other side.

I Need Not deny or hide the Tears-

He gave them to us

For a day such as this!

Disclosure: This may be TMI

for my casual blog Readers

Not personally connected to us...If so this is where you might want to exit

This account took place late summer 2012 after the cancer diagnosis and being told it was Stage 4

Most Days our early morning coffee is on our front porch where we share individual assessment of the weather, read our Bibles-one or both some  days & then our Prayer time.

Those times are becoming more sweet  these days. We don't want to waste a moment. We do not want to whine and we have abundant reason to be thankful. 

 Yesterday I experienced a revelation -as I talked with self these words slipped from my lips..yes aloud, even:  "Jonell, you can never, ever, doubt if or how much God loves you-He gave  His Son for you  and as if that were not enough-He gave you this man, my sweetheart for all these years since 1959."

After my Silver Fox finished praying, I slipped out of my chair,  dropped to my knees on the porch floor in front of his rocking chair, wrapped my arms around his neck and with a face full of tears poured out my heart to    our Heavenly Father.

Yes  He knows my heart is breaking. He knows  all the what ifs and "Hows" that fill my  mind through the days. He knows  I go to sleep crying every night..but He wants me to come close and lay it all at His feet.. 

We have breathed the same air for more than 54 years.  He knows that I do not know how to live without  my precious husband.


He just wants me to know that  when that day comes, He will carry me until I am steady again.

I do not expect Him to take away the tears.  He knew when He created us there would be "these days."  He knew   we would need the tears.

I have always thought myself to be a very strong woman. NOT!  Please God-use these tears to cleanse and strengthen and make me useful to You. 

I want my demeanor  my  spirit to speak  Christ,  peace,  JOY, comfort & calm to others especially our children. 

 

 

I TOLD YOU...the man is always gathering information. He reads all the

time .is a fast  reader too.

 

 Dontcha just hate that?  He reads for relaxation and almost entirely fiction-especially fiction set in a time and place of historical significance...me? I grab biographies, mysteries, Christian/self help and fiction with a political viewpoint. I am a slow reader though.  My hubby tells me it's because I read   one word at the time. What an interesting concept! Never, ever thought of that!

to be continued~

Looking Forward,