God Knew This Day Was Coming~
*[this post not meant for casual blog Readers/TMI]
Sprinkles, Showers, Storms
Rain Puddles Or Mud Holes-
Whatever Place You Find Yourself
It Is No Surprise to God!
He knew This Day was coming and He Promised
"I will never leave you Alone."
He may not rescue us but He will Walk Us Through
to the other side.
I Need Not deny or hide the Tears-
He gave them to us
For a day such as this!
Disclosure: This may be TMI
for my casual blog Readers
Not personally connected to us...If so this is where you might want to exit
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| This account took place late summer 2012 after the cancer diagnosis and being told it was Stage 4 |
Most Days our early morning coffee is on our front porch where we share individual assessment of the weather, read our Bibles-one or both some days & then our Prayer time.
Those times are becoming more sweet these days. We don't want to waste a moment. We do not want to whine and we have abundant reason to be thankful.
Yesterday I experienced a revelation -as I talked with self these words slipped from my lips..yes aloud, even: "Jonell, you can never, ever, doubt if or how much God loves you-He gave His Son for you and as if that were not enough-He gave you this man, my sweetheart for all these years since 1959."
After my Silver Fox finished praying, I slipped out of my chair, dropped to my knees on the porch floor in front of his rocking chair, wrapped my arms around his neck and with a face full of tears poured out my heart to our Heavenly Father.
Yes He knows my heart is breaking. He knows all the what ifs and "Hows" that fill my mind through the days. He knows I go to sleep crying every night..but He wants me to come close and lay it all at His feet..
We have breathed the same air for more than 54 years. He knows that I do not know how to live without my precious husband.
He just wants me to know that when that day comes, He will carry me until I am steady again.
Yes He knows my heart is breaking. He knows all the what ifs and "Hows" that fill my mind through the days. He knows I go to sleep crying every night..but He wants me to come close and lay it all at His feet..
We have breathed the same air for more than 54 years. He knows that I do not know how to live without my precious husband.
He just wants me to know that when that day comes, He will carry me until I am steady again.
I do not expect Him to take away the tears. He knew when He created us there would be "these days." He knew we would need the tears.
I have always thought myself to be a very strong woman. NOT! Please God-use these tears to cleanse and strengthen and make me useful to You.
I want my demeanor my spirit to speak Christ, peace, JOY, comfort & calm to others especially our children.
I TOLD YOU...the man is always gathering information. He reads all the
time .is a fast reader too.
Dontcha just hate that? He reads for relaxation and almost entirely fiction-especially fiction set in a time and place of historical significance...me? I grab biographies, mysteries, Christian/self help and fiction with a political viewpoint. I am a slow reader though. My hubby tells me it's because I read one word at the time. What an interesting concept! Never, ever thought of that!
to be continued~
Looking Forward,
